Hi. Im fcking sad today. Tade kawan nak mengadu. Last post was 15 december, so today is 11 sept.. Hmm. I just need some space to cakap sorng to motivate myself bcause im totally fed up with myself.  I hate myself. After all these time, i liked to play around.. Main main when study, relax memanjang. Kau kena igt insyirah spm bukan mcm upsr, mcm pmr. Kau igt senang ke hah. Kalu relax je memanjang jadilah mak cik cleaner je. KAU NAK KE INSYIRAHHH?! Aku redha kalu result trial aku tak okay tapi...susahnya parents aku. Diorng expected too much from me. Aku takut hampakn diorng. But i think i did. Aku bru dpt satu subject je..aku takut nak tahu result utk semua subjects. Aku takut. Ya Allah beri aku kekuatan secukupnya, beri aku semangat, beri aku kesenangan. Permudahkanlah aku utk belajar, jauhkanlah hasutan syaitan. Aku seorng yg lalai.. SPM INSYALLAH AKU AKAN DAPAT 9A+. Pray for me guys.